四十九日 / 49th day

老部(おいぺ)待休所にて  Oipe memorial place

At my father's 49th memorial service、Returned to Shimokita/Higashidori Village。April 29th、Finishing the memorial service smoothly、Until then, the temporary tablets were placed in the village's resting place (gathering place for Nembutsu-ba).、prayer hall。It was moved to Mt. Osore (which has an interesting folk religious color similar to that of Mt. Osore).、My father is now one of my ancestors.。

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

In Japanese Buddhism、49 days after death has a very important meaning.。In Japanese Buddhism, the day of death is considered the first day.、Suppose that a trial is held every seven days regarding the merits of the dead during their lifetime.。The first seven days will be the first trial.、Even if you are dead, what will happen to your life and death in the afterlife?、I'm nervous because the first trial will be held for。There, the bereaved families support、trying to support、make the first offering。An offering is a donation to society.、This does not necessarily mean that it is performed for monks.。In short, the deceased、This means that the bereaved family will take care of the shortfall in social contribution.。And a trial is held every seven days.、The verdict will be concluded on the 7th and final trial.。Trials are always held in seven sessions.、The final episode is the most important。If it is out here, the dead cannot go to the Pure Land of Paradise.、will go to hell。Therefore, the bereaved family gives the last words to the deceased.、Load up with donations as a thank you、It is important to back up the deceased。There's no chance after this。This is why we say that the memorial service on the 49th is the most important.。

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

This memorial service is also for monks.、extremely important as a source of income。in modern Japan、It's as if Buddhism no longer exists.、It still has a large presence only when it comes to burying the dead.。The ``funeral economy'' is, so to speak, the lifeline of Japanese Buddhism.。Moreover, the sadness of the bereaved family、Relativize sadness、The gap between social needs to reduce psychological burden as much as possible、And in between the time pressure of decomposing corpses due to global warming,、Although it looks messy, it has a huge presence.。That is the modern significance of the 49-day memorial service.、We Japanese、There is no problem with funerals.、They have a strange national character.。

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶりに描いた / Got good feeling

 

Watercolor Hamanasu F4 2012 (partial)

I painted watercolor for the first time in a while.。When was the last time you drew it?、I can't remember anymore。I don't think it's at least before March 7th (Wednesday).。Then、It hasn't been a month yet、Intuitively、It's been so long since I thought it had been years ago。

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

It's too much drawn。It doesn't mean that there is a lot of surface area to paint.、without thinking、It means that the drawing is monotonous.。It probably means that the screen and sensation are out of sync.。

This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

Still, I can feel the joy of writing after a long time bubbling out on the screen.。That's a good thing。After all, I am a person who gets energized by drawing.、I felt it again。

Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった   My father was dead

Mountain made of the father

my father died。2012March 13th, 8:22am。Father takes his last breath 5、6 hours ago、Trains beyond Hachinohe were suspended due to heavy snow.、I managed to reach the hospital in my brother's car.。The moment when the pulse rate on the monitor became 0、It was just me and my father in the hospital room.。

My father was dead. March 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

When I saw my father's face as soon as I arrived at the hospital、I felt that my father's death was near.、on the other hand、Since I came, I can do something、Even though the doctor had given up on me a long time ago (the doctor in charge didn't go home even though he wasn't on duty).。It was probably to announce the deathbed.)、I was thinking without any basis。In reality, my father died without being able to do anything.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Couldn't I have helped my father? I think。6 months、At least 3 months、I still think that if I devoted myself to caring for him, I might have been able to recover my father.。The reason we didn't do that was because we prioritized our own lives.。I can't help it if you say I abandoned you。my father wanted to meet me、why didn't you do that?、Maybe there was a feeling of wanting to ask。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

The dark forest under the windmill in the photo is a cedar forest planted by my father.。The final thinning was completed by my father, who loved the mountains himself.、The forest fauna, with plenty of space between each other, is、There is a clear difference from an untouched forest.。Apparently it has been a little less than 50 years since the trees were planted.。It will grow into a fine tree as time passes.。This is Hayashi where my father's heart remains.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27