Author: Takashi

Takashi's personal blog。Not just about paintings、What I think about every day、what you feel、I write whatever comes to mind。This blog is the third generation。From the beginning, it has been over 20 years.。 2023From January 1st、For now, I decided to just write on odd numbered days.。I'm going to think about my future direction and other things piece by piece.。

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Adobe's Fresco app has added new animation features、I found out the news 10 days ago.、I finally got to try it yesterday。This is probably the 4th prototype.、While doing it、“Why is this happening!?” comes up a lot.。1If you remember one, you'll come across about four of them.、All you have to do is repeat it and remember it one by one.。That's what it's like to learn how to use tools.。

This video also had more interesting movements.、It seems like I deleted it without even realizing it.。I don't even know what I'm deleting、I don't really understand (still do)。Before it disappears anymore、For the time being、I decided to see you。

There are probably people who think it's ridiculous to spend so much time making videos like this.。I feel that way as well, though、While repeating someone's line in my head, "If you say that, it's over."、I've been doing this for hours in silence。I have a lot of other things to do、If we don't do more, it will become meaningless.、say something like that。

The content of the video has no meaning at all。But、On the contrary, I am saved by its meaninglessness.。For some reason I find myself laughing when I watch it over and over again.。And、It's not that making meaningless videos is meaningless.、The things I feel like I have to do seem to be meaningless.。I draw and play quite seriously.、While I was drawing and editing、I'm starting to get into this mess。I think I should spin around a little more.。

Freedom and Expression-2

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Last time、In order to obtain true freedom, it is said that ``become free from yourself = throw away your (desires and desires)''、It was a story about a Zen monk.。I see.、I thought、At the same time, I also thought that it would be impossible for 99.99% of people in the world.。

There is nothing to be gained by giving up desires and desires.、I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、It means I can have time with my true self.、I don't know how it will manifest itself。I can imagine that there is an expression of oneself and oneself (behavior) that becomes visible only when one reaches a state of mind that is close to ``enlightenment.''、I can think of expressions that would otherwise be impossible.。

on the other hand、99,99%Some of the people、On the contrary, aren't there some people who try to be faithful to their desires and earthly desires?。Becoming more and more radical with the aim of "deceiving people"、That direction。What kind of world will that end in?。Somehow、I have a larva that hatches itself、The appearance of caterpillars that turn into butterflies overlaps.。If the caterpillar is “me” at that point,、After all, isn't he throwing away who he was and becoming his true self?。

There, like a circle、Maybe we're just seeing different aspects of the same thing.。If so...。But、Either way, it's no good to be half-hearted (no、If mere phase is the essence、Maybe it's the same thing)、That's what I feel (at the moment)。And I also believe that 99.99% of people must be half-hearted.。

What is freedom and expression? A story from a Zen monk

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no one cares、whenever you want、do what you like、that's freedom。- “That’s not true.”、A Zen monk says:。it's stuck on me。whenever you like、What I like、Many of them are temporary、ephemeral、Maybe it wouldn't matter if you waited a little bit.、It's something like、and。

I wake up at 3 a.m. and start taking care of myself.。It's never been a hassle (= a hassle)、I do it because in hindsight I think it was a good idea after all.。At that time、I don't mind if I sleep a little longer (freedom)、I'll regret it later。Daily routine is set。No need to think about what to do (freedom from thinking)。that's why、What kind of being am I?、What am I?、You can spend a lot of time freely、friend。

I see.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。he is a foreigner、Since I was young, I felt that I wanted to live more freely.、leave your parents、leave the country、away from work、He said he came to a Japanese temple.。However, in training there is no freedom at all.、I know that I can only do what I can't do, but I'm frustrated、No one says anything even if I do what I want, but I become more and more isolated.。I can't even read the scriptures、no one will tell me。become lonely、I wanted to go back to my country。But, “What will I do when I return to my country?”。―Everything starts from me―That’s why、“Return to yourself” again。The world has changed since then、That's called。

I see.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。Return to yourself - do what you really want to do、momentary、not instantaneously。what to do for that。-Rather than trying to get something、To throw away、To be empty – yes.、I remember receiving the same advice.。I guess that's why you started studying about Buddhism again.。
-If what you really want to do is not expressed、I wonder if such expressions will eventually become nothing more than a kind of ``deceptive'' kind of thing.、It is a sport that is firmly connected to the essence of current sports.。After all, it is precisely through this kind of expression that money and fame can be earned - and it is difficult to throw it away (which I think is different from "giving up").、severity、and think about your own expression。