Author: Takashi

2First video shoot in a month。My goal is to take pictures once a week.、I can't do it at all right now。It's not that I don't have time、"ability" side。It doesn't require any special abilities either.、Most of the time, with experience, anyone can do it.、All I can say is that I'm just slacking off.。

Having a small studio space is the root cause of slacking off.。It requires some effort in advance to ``clean up''.、I lose a lot of motivation for this task.。If the number of times is too short, the preparation work will not flow smoothly.、I also forget the meaning of the numbers displayed on cameras and other equipment.、The gears no longer mesh together。I wish I could leave my photography equipment out.、The space in my house is half-baked and very difficult to use.。

2019from year、There was a blank period of time due to the declaration of a state of emergency due to the coronavirus infection.。This situation will continue for at least 1-2 years.、I thought there would definitely be a change in my worldview after that.、Practicing CG production and video production, which I had felt necessary for a long time.、I decided to take this opportunity to seriously try it.。Invest in your own photography equipment、take time to study、I started practicing – so far so good.。

It was good up to that point, but、What I was faced with was the reality that I was far more entrenched in analog than I had imagined.。I felt like I was a little more flexible.、When I started, it was stiff.、Completely ``a wanderer standing on the edge of the sea of ​​despair''。But I can't go back now、If I go back, my painting career will end there.。--While I was walking leisurely, I was overtaken by an IT bus that came after me.。The bus is getting further and further away。I can't help it。Walk along the path of the bus。My son said, ``It's not that far away.、"Where's the next bus stop?" he encouraged me.、I'm not even sure if I'm tracking the trail properly.。In the IT world、Apparently some people suddenly develop wings and are able to fly as they continue to do so.。hope for that、I'll go play around with it tomorrow too.。

さまざまな事情で絵から離れた人から時々ハガキなどを頂く。それらのなかには「あの時間は最も幸せな時間でした」と書いてあることが少なくない。多少の美辞麗句はあるとしても、正直な心情も込められていると感じる。

一枚の絵を描くのには大小さまざまな山や川を越えなくてはならない。それらの幾多のハードルの中でいちばん大きな山が「時間」だろう。「お金」という人もいるだろうが、それはたぶんお金を稼ぐために絵を描いている時間がない、ということだと解釈している。コストという意味では、絵は最もお金のかからない精神的な遊びのひとつだ。実際に、鉛筆一本で自分の世界観を表現することは誰にでも可能だから。原始時代の洞窟壁画には鉛筆すらなかった。

家族の成長とか老化など、いろんな条件を勘案して、「自由に伸びのび（気楽に）」絵が描ける（絵に限らないが）時間を試算してみたことがある。同じことを考える人は少なくないらしく、それらの意見を総合するとだいたい3~10年くらいになりそうだ。日本人の平均寿命が男女とも80歳を超えて久しいのに、この短さは何を表しているのだろうか。―わたしの周囲の人々の多くは皆さん軽く10年以上描き続けている。That means、単に“ラッキーな人生”ということではなく、むしろ相当な犠牲を払ってでもそれを続けているということになるのだろうか。

ある女性美術家がわたしに言った。「絵を描いている人はみんな愛しく思える、可愛いと感じる。」自分が愛する「絵」を、ずっと愛し続けている人はみなかけがえのない仲間だ、そんな気持ちの表現だろうと思う。彼女ほどの心境にはわたしまだ達していないが、犠牲を払うほど絵は純化していくような気がする。シーンと集中して筆を動かしている人を見ていると、幸福というのは外から見えるようなものではなく、そういう一瞬一瞬にあるものかな、などとも思う。

1Saturday, May 8th。The world has already started running。This is also reflected in the spread of Corona Omicron strain infection.。It's about to start now、It's not just a sleepy frog hibernating.、Ket。

When I try to start the car engine, there is no response at all.。There is no eun or sun。The battery is dead。I haven't moved the car once since New Year's Day until today.、Apparently the door may have been left ajar.。The indoor lamp was also malfunctioning and would turn on and off.、Did they overlap like kagami-mochi?。I don't know if that means it's New Year's day.。

For now, I'll ask JAF to come.、Charge。After that、Go to the car parts store、replace battery。5Is the sun the heart? I was so nervous that I had to go to the hospital at night.、Personally, I feel like this year will be a year of big changes.。

I gained 2kg in weight in the two weeks from the end of the month to yesterday (all of it must be fat).。I drank too much alcohol、Naturally, I don't work at night and just enjoy watching online movies.。It's healthy if you take care of it properly.。2My New Year's Eve diet went as planned and I reached my goal.、From now on, it's important to keep it - the human experiment begins today.。