Author: Takashi

Takashi's personal blog。Not just about paintings、What I think about every day、what you feel、I write whatever comes to mind。This blog is the third generation。From the beginning, it has been over 20 years.。 2023From January 1st、For now, I decided to just write on odd numbered days.。I'm going to think about my future direction and other things piece by piece.。

where did the flowers go

“At the seaside” watercolor (in progress)

BBC reporter on the front lines of the Ukraine war、A scene from on-site reporting from the Ukrainian side。until you reach the soldier、It's just a little time、The surrounding scenery is also reflected in the shaking of the camera.、I'll come into view。Is it about waist height?、The grass is rather tall、It grows all along the side of a small road in a field.、There are lots of white flowers blooming and swaying in the breeze.。under that flower、The soldier is lying on his stomach and firing his gun rapidly.。The moment I saw the video、I couldn't help but remember the melody of "Where Did the Flowers Go?"。

"Where did the flowers go?"、As an anti-war song for the Vietnam War、At that time, it was sung by young people all over the world.。Pete Seeger wrote this song、Appears in a passage from Russian writer Sholokhov's "The Quiet Don"、Apparently it was inspired by Ukrainian folk songs.。This song is deeply related to both countries.、This may be the song I want young people in Russia and Ukraine to sing the most right now.。
This song is、America, a party to the war、It quickly spread among young people.、As the situation spread, the 20-year Vietnam War ended with America's "defeat."。

just like America、Anti-war sentiment spreads from Russia、Can we move towards an end to the war?。please、I wish it were like that、Looking at modern Russia、It is impossible to imagine the path that will lead from the rise of anti-war consciousness to its end.。unless one of us gives up、1This is a situation that I don't think will end in a year or two.。
Even if you just look at the history of Europe, you will see words like "30 Years War" and "100 Years War".。Last year, the US withdrew、The Afghan conflict, which has just reached a tentative conclusion, took 20 years.。It's been 20 years since the Vietnam War.。More than 10 years have passed since the Syrian civil war、It continues even now。We may need to be prepared for the possibility that this war will last that long.。

with many lives、Huge amount of money to throw away。I'm sure everyone thinks that if they used that money for future generations...、That feeling、Why does that flower last forever?、Will it not reach the person who is waiting?。

charm

one day、At Engakuji Temple (watercolor)

Cloudy sky for the first time in a while。It's mostly sunny for the past week、It was a hot day every day。How about that?。Although I've gotten used to the heat a lot.、By the evening I was already tired、I can't work or study at night.。Days like that continued。It's dawn today、The forecast was for rain、As expected, it was not a “missing shot” but a “empty fall” situation.。Although、I'm happy even if it's cloudy。

What I find attractive is、Is it still “passion”?。Anything is fine.、“Passionate” rather than mechanical。when you feel it、I feel like I'm getting heated up by that aura.。it gives me strength。

If it's in me and what I make、how to make it attractive、There's probably no need to think about it.。do you have passion、How passionate are you?、Maybe all you have to do is honestly reflect on that in your own heart.。

I have a lot of “rewards”

07/29 (soil) 16:00 It's been uploaded。Please take a look

暑いですね～、と今日も言ってしまいますが、It's hot, isn't it?。everyone、大丈夫ですか？くたびれてません？わたしは北国育ちで、どちらかといえば夏は若干苦手意識がありましたが、最近はすっかり慣れたのか、（夏の初めはちょっとのあいだ苦しみますが）今ではもう外が38℃でも39℃でも（クーラーのある室内にいさえすれば）平気です。

So、夕方日が落ちる頃ちょっとウオーキングでもすると、“暑イ中ゴクロウサン” とばかりに、すぐご褒美に泡の出る水とかを自分自身にあげちゃうんです（シャボン玉を飛ばして遊ぶワケではありませんよ、Just in case)。But、妻が買い物に行くというと「ええ～っ！こんな暑いのによく行けるなァ」とか言うだけで、両手に買い物袋下げて汗びっしょりになって帰宅しても、全然ご褒美など上げないんです、ケチなんでしょうか。

絵を描いていてもそうなんです。自分で描いている時は失敗しても「よくあることだよ。でも途中で投げ出さなかったのはエライ、エライ」とか言って、やっぱりすぐ冷蔵庫のドアを開けます。教室で生徒さんが失敗すると、"oh dear、よくあることだよ。もう一度ね」とか言うだけで、頑張っていてもエライとは言いません。上手くできても「イイねェ、もう一枚描くともっと自信つくよ。"but、やっぱりご褒美は出ません。ケチなんでしょうね。

すぐご褒美が出るので、脳内インスリン（とは言わないが）による満足感があり、「もう少し頑張ろう」「もうちょっと上を目指そう」という欲が湧きません。このご褒美グセ（自分にだけ）のお陰？で「向上心」なんて、とうとう今までお目にかかってきませんでした。今と“真逆” の、「自分に厳しく、他人にご褒美あげられる」性格だったら、今頃わたしも“それなり” の人間になっていたかもなあ、と反省するのですが、on second thoughts、そんな自分にも「反省スルノハイイコトダヨ」とご褒美をあげてしまうのでした。