I’m happy, just now.

Apple-Rural(almost finished)

Almost finished。I feel a sense of freedom only at this moment when I hang up my brush.。If this were the night, I would want to have a drink.、It's noon now, so even if it's the same cup of coffee, I prefer coffee.。It's getting cold this evening、What's up there?、Start thinking about how to fix this.。That's why this moment is precious。

Since I started drawing、Approximately 1 month。in my case、On average, large pieces seem to be finished faster than small pieces.。It probably depends on whether or not you prepare in advance.。I often start drawing small pieces just from an idea (though that's also a good thing).、Sometimes it stops in the middle。Then、Like coal tar that never dries、It's been clinging to me for years (although that may not be a bad thing)。that's why、In any case, we need to reach the end in the shortest possible way.。After that, I will add it carefully.、It's good to step up to new works.。

There's a war going on in Ukraine。In the midst of this、How can you draw a picture that looks like the wrinkles in your brain have fully grown out (and it’s “rural”!)、living on the same earth、I wondered if it could be said that we were breathing the atmosphere of the same era. I was anxious to create pictures that were more representative of the modern era.、that's modern、I think these days。
There are mercenaries who go to other countries to kill people in order to feed their families.。On the other hand, there is also work to mourn the victims.。Some companies make bombs and weapons.、There are companies that make medicines to heal those wounds.。There is a world where there is always an opportunity to learn.、Some children have no access to education throughout their lives.。that's the world。and where they are deep、I finally understand that we are all connected.。in the world、Nothing is unrelated to anything else.。

do what you can。Don't overdo it、But sincerely。That's already difficult。

Sunday

Currently working on watercolors (does not rely on photographs)、I value seeing and drawing)

Today I was transferring data from the camera to the computer and freeing up space in the camera's memory (though I could easily get away with buying a memory card).。

The camera must be available at all times、Prioritize data transfer。While switching between transfer and data deletion、Other photos on my computer、Check if you want to save videos as well。It's a recent issue、I had already forgotten that there was a picture like this。

If I don't draw it, I'll forget it right away.、I can't draw anymore。As we get older, everyone's eyesight deteriorates.、My hands are shaking too。It takes time to remember one thing、Even if I remember it、I forget about it from my side。It probably takes a different level of ability to make "decay" taste "good."。Moreover,、I feel like it's not something you can acquire by practicing.。

But、Oh dear、There's nothing you can do about thinking like that。If you feel like it、For now, let's draw something else.、That's what I felt like。

orange peel

Cookie maybe、When I opened the pink bag I received, there was an orange peel.。I felt that spring had come。There are many summer tangerine trees at my wife's parents' house.、When my children were young, I took them there every time I went on vacation.、It was the fruit of the fruit.。

The experience of picking a fruit as big as your own head is extraordinary and exciting.、I randomly pick them without any purpose to use them.。one day、I was wondering in the back of my mind what to do with the mountain of summer mandarin oranges.、I asked my child to make orange peels.。Overcoming the opposition that gas costs and granulated sugar costs were higher,、The first time I tried making it with just the two of us.。It has a bitter taste、There was no chocolate either、He was very happy.。I have fond memories of making lots of them and enjoying them for a while.。

since then、子どもを喜ばすことなどやってあげた記憶がほとんどない自分のことだけで一杯一杯だった気がするいまさら反省したって遅いが―「へぇーっチョコレートのボリュームがすごいね」と息子やっぱり買ったものとは違うねと妻「これは夏ミカンじゃないね苦みがないもの」とわたし

ah、気持に余裕がないなあ気分的なものだけでなくすべてに余裕がなくなってきた生きている残り時間も含めてせめてわたしも何か美味しいものを自分で作るだけの気持を取り戻したいなあ