四十 九日 / 49 zile

老部(おいぺ)待休所にて  Oipe memorial place

La cea de-a 49-a slujbă de pomenire a tatălui meu、Întors în satul Shimokita/Higashidori。29 aprilie、Încheierea slujbei de pomenire fără probleme、Până atunci, tăblițele temporare erau așezate în locul de odihnă al satului (loc de adunare pentru Nembutsu-ba).、sala de rugăciune。A fost mutat pe Muntele Osore (care are o culoare religioasă populară interesantă similară cu cea a Muntelui Osore).、Tatăl meu este acum unul dintre strămoșii mei.。

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

În budismul japonez、49 de zile după moarte are o semnificație foarte importantă.。În budismul japonez, ziua morții este considerată prima zi.、Să presupunem că la fiecare șapte zile are loc un proces cu privire la meritele morților în timpul vieții lor.。初七日は最初の裁判となり死者といえども「あの世での生死」がどうなるかの最初の裁判が行われるため緊張するそこで遺族が応援援護しようと最初のお布施を行うお布施とは社会への寄付であり必ずしもお坊さんに対して行うという意味ではない要するに亡くなった故人の社会貢献の不足分を遺族が代行するということだそして7日ごとに裁判が行われ最終第7回目で結審する審理は必ず7回で行われ最終回が最も重要だここでアウトなら死者は極楽浄土には行けず地獄に落ちることになるそのため遺族が死者に対して最後のお礼としてのお布施を積んで死者のバックアップをすることが重要になるこの後ではもうチャンスが無いのだ49日の法要が最も大事だというのはそういう意味である

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

この法要は僧侶にとっても収入源として極めて重要な意味を持っている現代日本において仏教は既に存在していないに等しいが死者の葬送に関してだけは依然として大きな存在感を持っている「葬儀経済」はいわば日本仏教の命綱なのであるしかも遺族の悲しみと悲しみを相対化しできるだけ心理的負担を軽く済まそうという社会的ニーズのはざまそして温暖化による死体腐乱との時間的プレッシャーとの合間にドサクサ的ではあるが巨大な存在感を持っているそれが49日法要の現代的意義であるがわれわれ日本人は葬儀に関しては問題化しないという不思議な国民性を有しているのである

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶり に 描い た / Got sentiment de bine

 

はまなす 水彩F4(部分) 2012

久しぶりに水彩を描いたこの前描いたのがいつだったかもう思い出せない少なくとも3月7日(水)以前ではないと思う。Dacă da、まだ1カ月経っていないわけだが、Intuitiv、もう何年も経ってしまったかと思うほど「切れてしまった」

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

描き過ぎだ塗る面積が多いという意味ではなく考え無しに単調に描いてしまっていると意味だ画面と感覚がずれているということだろう

This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

それでも久しぶりに筆を執った喜びは画面に吹き出ているように感じるいいことだやはり私は描くことで元気になる人間だとあらためて感じた

Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった   My father was dead

父の作った山

tatăl meu a murit。201213 martie, ora 8:22。Tata ia ultima suflare 5、acum 6 ore、Trenurile dincolo de Hachinohe au fost suspendate din cauza ninsorilor abundente.、Am reușit să ajung la spital cu mașina fratelui meu.。Momentul în care pulsul de pe monitor a devenit 0、Eram doar eu și tatăl meu în camera de spital.。

My father was dead. Martie 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Când am văzut chipul tatălui meu imediat ce am ajuns la spital、Am simțit că moartea tatălui meu este aproape.、pe de altă parte、De când am venit, pot face ceva、Chiar daca doctorul renuntase demult la mine (medicul responsabil nu s-a dus acasa desi nu era de garda).。Probabil a fost pentru a anunța patul de moarte.)、Mă gândeam fără nicio bază。În realitate, tatăl meu a murit fără să poată face nimic.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

N-aș fi putut să-l ajut pe tatăl meu? Cred că。6 luni、Cel putin 3 luni、Încă mai cred că, dacă m-aș fi dedicat îngrijirii lui, s-ar fi putut să-mi recuperez tatăl.。Motivul pentru care nu am făcut asta a fost pentru că ne-am prioritizat propriile vieți.。Nu mă pot abține dacă spui că te-am abandonat。tatăl meu a vrut să mă cunoască、de ce nu ai facut asta?、Poate că a existat un sentiment de dorință să întreb。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Pădurea întunecată de sub moara de vânt din fotografie este o pădure de cedri plantată de tatăl meu.。Rărirea finală a fost finalizată de tatăl meu, care însuși iubea munții.、Fauna forestieră, cu mult spațiu între ele, este、Există o diferență clară față de pădurea de neatins.。Se pare că au trecut puțin mai puțin de 50 de ani de când au fost plantați copacii.。Odată cu trecerea timpului, va crește într-un copac frumos.。Acesta este Hayashi unde rămâne inima tatălui meu.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27