Mjesec: Ožujak 2012

moj otac je umro。201213. ožujka, 8:22 ujutro。Otac udahne posljednji put 5、prije 6 sati、Vlakovi iza Hachinohea obustavljeni su zbog velikog snijega.、Uspio sam bratovim autom doći do bolnice.。Trenutak kada je puls na monitoru postao 0、Bili smo samo ja i moj otac u bolničkoj sobi.。

My father was dead. Ožujak 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 ili 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Kad sam čim sam stigao u bolnicu ugledao očevo lice、Osjećao sam da je očeva smrt blizu.、s druge strane、Otkako sam došao, mogu nešto učiniti、Iako je doktorica davno digla ruke od mene (glavni doktor nije otišao kući iako nije bio na dužnosti)。Vjerojatno je to bila najava smrtne postelje.)、Razmišljao sam bez ikakve osnove。U stvarnosti, moj otac je umro, a da ništa nije mogao učiniti.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Zar nisam mogao pomoći ocu? ja mislim。6 mjeseci、Najmanje 3 mjeseca、Još uvijek mislim da bih mog oca mogao oporaviti da sam mu se posvetio.。Razlog zbog kojeg to nismo učinili je taj što smo sami sebi dali prioritet.。Ne mogu si pomoći ako kažeš da sam te napustio。otac me htio upoznati、zašto to nisi učinio?、Možda je postojao osjećaj da želim pitati。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Tamna šuma ispod vjetrenjače na fotografiji je cedrova šuma koju je posadio moj otac.。Završno stanjivanje dovršio je moj otac, koji je i sam volio planine.、Šumska fauna, s dosta međusobnog prostora, jest、Postoji jasna razlika u odnosu na nedodirljivu šumu.。Navodno je prošlo nešto manje od 50 godina od sadnje stabala.。Kako vrijeme bude prolazilo, izrast će u lijepo drvo.。Ovo je Hayashi gdje je ostalo srce mog oca.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

moj otac se ne osjeća dobro。Jedno jutro, iznenada sam pomislio。Nemam portret svoga oca。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

ja sam slikar。Štoviše, glavna tema su ljudi (iako je to teško nazvati portretom).。ipak、Nema portreta moga oca.。otac, majka, supruga, brat、Nisam nacrtao nikoga od svojih rođaka.。Nema čak ni puno autoportreta。kad je moj djed umro、Nacrtala sam posmrtnu masku koja je opkoračila još toplo tijelo.。Ostalo pripada mom sinu、Ima tek nekoliko povremenih skica.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Što više razmišljam o tome、to izgleda čudno。Uvijek su me zanimala ljudska lica i geste.、Mislio sam da stvari promatram dublje od drugih ljudi.、Što ovo znači?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

Moja obitelj ima previše smisla za život.、Znači li to da su oni uklonjeni iz predmeta slikanja? ali、Ne mislim da postoji kontradikcija između osjećaja života i slikarstva.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

Od sada ću biti svjestan sebe i svoje obitelji.、Nacrtajmo poznatu osobu。Od poznatih motiva、Mnogo je primjera stvaranja dobrih slika.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.