This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.
Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3
My father was dead. Março 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.
病院について直ぐ父の顔を見たとき、父の死は間近だと感じたが、por outro lado、自分が来たからには何とかできると、とっくに医者も見離しているのに（担当医は当直でもないのに帰宅せずに留まっていた。おそらく臨終の宣告をするためだったのだろう）、根拠もなく考えていた。実際はどうすることもできずに父の死を迎えたのだったが。
When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.
I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?
There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27
meu pai não está se sentindo bem。Certa manhã, de repente pensei。Eu não tenho um retrato do meu pai。
My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.
eu sou um pintor。Além disso, o tema principal são os humanos (embora seja difícil chamá-lo de retrato).。no entanto、Não há retrato do meu pai.。pai, mãe, esposa, irmão、Não desenhei nenhum dos meus parentes.。Não há nem muitos autorretratos。quando meu avô morreu、Desenhei uma máscara mortuária abrangendo o corpo ainda quente.。O resto é do meu filho、Existem apenas alguns esboços ocasionais.。
Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.
Quanto mais eu penso sobre isso、isso parece estranho。Sempre me interessei por rostos e gestos humanos.、Achei que estava observando as coisas mais profundamente do que outras pessoas.、O que isto significa?
I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?
Minha família tem um senso de vida muito grande.、Isso significa que eles estão afastados do tema da pintura? mas、Não creio que haja contradição entre o sentido da vida e a pintura.。
Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.
De agora em diante, estarei consciente de mim e da minha família.、Vamos desenhar uma pessoa familiar。De motivos familiares、Existem muitos exemplos de boas imagens sendo criadas.。
I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.
