四十九日/第49天

老部(おいぺ)待休所にて  Oipe memorial place

在我父親的第 49 屆追悼會上、返回下北/東通村。4月29日、追思會順利結束、在此之前,臨時牌位被放置在村莊的休息處(念佛場的聚集地)。、祈禱廳。它被轉移到了奧索爾山(這裡有與奧索爾山類似的有趣的民間宗教色彩)。、我的父親現在是我的祖先之一。。

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

在日本佛教中、人死後49天有著非常重要的意義。。在日本佛教中,死亡之日被視為第一天。、假設每七天舉行一次審判,審判死者生前的功績。。前 7 天將是第一次審判。、就算你死了,來世你的生死又會怎樣?、我很緊張,因為第一次審判即將舉行。在那裡,死者家屬的支持、試圖支持、進行第一次奉獻。奉獻是對社會的捐贈。、這並不一定意味著它是為僧侶表演的。。簡而言之,死者、這意味著死者家屬將彌補社會貢獻的缺口。。每七日進行一次審判。、判決將在第七次也是最後一次審判中得出。。審判總是分七次進行。、最後一集是最重要的。如果在這裡的話,死者就不能去極樂淨土。、會下地獄。因此,死者家屬向死者發出遺言。、裝載捐款以示感謝、支持死者很重要。以後就沒有機會了。這就是為什麼我們說49號的追悼會是最重要的。。

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

這次追悼會也是為僧侶舉行的。、作為收入來源極為重要。在現代日本、就好像佛教已經不存在了。、只有在埋葬死者時它仍然有很大的存在。。可以說,「喪葬經濟」是日本佛教的生命線。。不僅如此,死者家屬的悲痛之情、相對悲傷、社會需求差距盡可能減輕心理負擔、而在全球暖化導致屍體腐爛的時間壓力之間,、雖然看起來很亂,但是存在感卻很大。。這就是為期49天的追悼會的現代意義。、我們日本人、葬禮方面不存在任何問題。、他們有一種奇怪的民族性格。。

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶりに描いた / Got good feeling

 

水彩畫Hamanasu F4 2012年(部分)

久しぶりに水彩を描いた。你上一次畫它是什麼時候?、我不記得了。我認為至少不會在 3 月 7 日星期三之前。。然後、還沒到一個月、直覺地、它被削減了太多,我想已經有好幾年了。。

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

畫得太太多了。這並不意味著有很多表面積可以塗漆。、不加思索、這意味著繪圖是單調的。。這可能意味著螢幕和感覺不同步。。

This is over painting, 我覺得. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

儘管如此,在螢幕上出現很長時間後,我仍然感受到了寫作的樂趣。。這是一件好事。畢竟我是一個靠畫畫獲得能量的人。、我又感覺到了。

althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった我的父親死了

山所作的父親

我父親去世了。20123月13日上午8點22分。父親嚥下最後一口氣 5、6 小時前、由於大雪,八戶以外的火車停駛。、我乘坐哥哥的車設法到達了醫院。。監視器上脈搏數變為0的瞬間、病房裡只有我和父親。。

我的父親死了. 三月 13 在 2012, 在 8:22 在早晨. I just was in time for his death before 5 或 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

當我一到醫院就看到了父親的臉、我感覺父親的死期已經將近了。、另一方面、既然我來了,我就可以做點什麼、儘管醫生早就放棄我了(主治醫生不值班也沒有回家)。。可能是為了宣布臨終消息。 )、我的想法毫無根據。事實上,我的父親死了,卻什麼也做不了。。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. 彼岸, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. 當時, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

難道我就不能幫助我的父親嗎?我認為。6個月、至少3個月、我仍然認為,如果我全心全意地照顧他,也許就能治癒我的父親。。我們沒有這樣做的原因是因為我們優先考慮自己的生活。。如果你說我拋棄了你我也沒辦法。我父親想見我、為什麼不那樣做?、也許有種想問的感覺。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, 只是當 6 或最低 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, 我不知道?

照片中風車下的黑暗森林是父親種植的雪松森林。。山が大好きだった父自身の手で最終間伐を終え、森林動物群彼此之間有足夠的空間,、與不可接觸的森林有著明顯的差異。。植林後まだ50年に少し満たないらしい。隨著時間的推移,它會長成一棵參天大樹。。這裡是我父親的心所在的林。。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27