Úll i Glas: Neamhrangaithe

fuair m'athair bás。201213ú Márta, 8:22am。Tógann Athair a anáil dheireanach 5、6 uair an chloig ó shin、Cuireadh traenacha níos faide ná Hachinohe ar fionraí de bharr sneachta trom.、D’éirigh liom an t-ospidéal a bhaint amach i gcarr mo dhearthár.。An nóiméad ar tháinig an ráta cuisle ar an monatóir cothrom le 0、Ní raibh ann ach mise agus m’athair sa seomra ospidéil.。

My father was dead. Márta 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Nuair a chonaic mé aghaidh m’athar chomh luath agus a shroich mé an t-ospidéal、Mhothaigh mé go raibh bás m’athar gar.、ar an lámh eile、Ó tháinig mé, is féidir liom rud éigin a dhéanamh、Cé gur éirigh an dochtúir liom i bhfad ó shin (ní dheachaigh an dochtúir i gceannas abhaile agus d’fhan sé ann cé nach raibh sé ar dualgas)。Is dócha go raibh sé chun an leaba báis a fhógairt.)、Bhí mé ag smaoineamh gan aon bhunús。I ndáiríre, fuair m'athair bás gan a bheith in ann aon rud a dhéanamh.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Nárbh fhéidir liom cabhrú le m'athair? Ceapaim。6 mhí、Ar a laghad 3 mhí、Is dóigh liom fós go mb’fhéidir go mbeinn in ann m’athair a ghnóthú dá mbeinn dírithe ar a chúram.。Ba é an chúis nach ndearnamar é sin ná gur thugamar tosaíocht dár saolta féin.。Ní féidir liom cabhrú leis má deir tú gur thréig mé thú。bhí m'athair ag iarraidh bualadh liom、cén fáth nach ndearna tú é sin?、B'fhéidir go raibh mothú ar iarraidh a iarraidh。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Is foraoise cedar í an fhoraois dhorcha faoin muileann gaoithe sa ghrianghraf a chuir m’athair.。Chuir m’athair an tanú deiridh i gcrích, a raibh grá aige do na sléibhte é féin.、Is é an fána foraoise, le go leor spáis idir a chéile、Tá difríocht shoiléir ón bhforaois nach féidir a láimhseáil.。Is cosúil go bhfuil sé beagán níos lú ná 50 bliain ó cuireadh na crainn.。Fásfaidh sé ina chrann mín le himeacht ama.。Seo Hayashi áit a bhfuil croí m’athar fós.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

Níl m'athair ag mothú go maith。Breá amháin, shíl mé go tobann。Níl portráid de m'athair agam。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

is péintéir mé。Thairis sin, is é an príomhthéama ná daoine (cé go bhfuil sé deacair portráid a thabhairt air).。mar sin féin、Níl portráid ar bith de m’athair.。athair, máthair, bean chéile, deartháir、Níor tharraing mé aon duine de mo ghaolta.。Ní fiú mórán féinphortráidí。nuair a fuair mo sheanathair bás、Tharraing mé masc báis trasna ar an gcorp atá fós te.。Is le mo mhac an chuid eile、Níl ach cúpla sceitse corruair.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Dá mhéad a smaoiním air、is cosúil go bhfuil aisteach。Bhí suim agam i gcónaí in aghaidheanna agus gothaí an duine.、Shíl mé go raibh mé ag breathnú ar rudaí níos doimhne ná daoine eile.、Cad a chiallaíonn sé seo?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

Tá an iomarca braistint saoil ag mo theaghlach.、An gciallaíonn sé seo go mbaintear amach as ábhar na péintéireachta iad? ach、Ní dóigh liom go bhfuil contrárthacht idir tuiscint ar an saol agus péintéireacht.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

As seo amach, beidh mé feasach faoi mé féin agus mo theaghlach.、Déanaimis duine eolach a tharraingt。Ó mhóitífeanna eolach、Tá go leor samplaí de phictiúir mhaithe á gcruthú.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.