四十九日 / 49th day

老部(おいぺ)待休所にて  Oipe memorial place

在我父亲的第 49 届追悼会上、返回下北/东通村。4月29日、追悼会顺利结束、在此之前,临时牌位被放置在村庄的休息处(念佛场的聚集地)。、祈祷厅。它被转移到了奥索尔山(这里有与奥索尔山类似的有趣的民间宗教色彩)。、我的父亲现在是我的祖先之一。。

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

在日本佛教中、人死后49天有着非常重要的意义。。在日本佛教中,死亡之日被视为第一天。、假设每七天举行一次审判,审判死者生前的功绩。。前 7 天将是第一次审判。、就算你死了,来世你的生死又会怎样?、我很紧张,因为第一次审判即将举行。在那里,死者家属的支持、试图支持、进行第一次奉献。奉献是对社会的捐赠。、这并不一定意味着它是为僧侣表演的。。简而言之,死者、这意味着死者家属将弥补社会贡献的缺口。。每七日进行一次审判。、判决将在第七次也是最后一次审判中得出。。审判总是分七次进行。、最后一集是最重要的。如果在这里的话,死者就不能去极乐净土。、会下地狱。因此,死者家属向死者发出遗言。、装载捐款以示感谢、支持死者很重要。以后就没有机会了。这就是为什么我们说49号的追悼会是最重要的。。

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

这次追悼会也是为僧人举行的。、作为收入来源极其重要。在现代日本、就好像佛教已经不存在了。、只有在埋葬死者时它仍然有很大的存在。。可以说,“丧葬经济”是日本佛教的生命线。。不仅如此,死者家属的悲痛之情、相对悲伤、社会需求差距尽可能减轻心理负担、而在全球变暖导致尸体腐烂的时间压力之间,、虽然看上去很乱,但是存在感却很大。。这就是为期49天的追悼会的现代意义。、我们日本人、葬礼方面不存在任何问题。、他们有一种奇怪的民族性格。。

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶりに描いた / Got good feeling

 

水彩画Hamanasu F4 2012年(部分)

我有一段时间第一次画水彩了。。你最后一次画它是什么时候?、我不记得了。我认为至少不会在 3 月 7 日星期三之前。。然后、还没到一个月、直观地、它被削减了太多,我想已经有好几年了。。

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

画得太太多了。这并不意味着有很多表面积可以涂漆。、不加思索、这意味着绘图是单调的。。这可能意味着屏幕和感觉不同步。。

This is over painting, 我觉得. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

尽管如此,在屏幕上出现很长时间后,我仍然感受到了写作的乐趣。。这是一件好事。毕竟我是一个靠画画获得能量的人。、我又感觉到了。

althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった我的父亲死了

山所作的父亲

我父亲去世了。20123月13日上午8点22分。父亲咽下最后一口气 5、6 小时前、由于大雪,八户以外的火车停运。、我乘哥哥的车设法到达了医院。。监护仪上脉搏数变为0的瞬间、病房里只有我和父亲。。

我的父亲死了. 三月 13 在 2012, 在 8:22 在早晨. I just was in time for his death before 5 或 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

当我一到医院就看到了父亲的脸、我感觉父亲的死期已经临近了。、另一方面、既然我来了,我就可以做点什么、尽管医生早就放弃了我(主治医生不在值班也没有回家留在那里)。可能是为了宣布临终消息。)、我的想法毫无根据。事实上,我的父亲死了,却什么也做不了。。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. 彼岸, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. 当时, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

难道我就不能帮助我的父亲吗?我认为。6个月、至少3个月、我仍然认为,如果我全身心地照顾他,也许就能治愈我的父亲。。我们没有这样做的原因是因为我们优先考虑自己的生活。。如果你说我抛弃了你我也没办法。我父亲想见见我、你为什么不那样做?、也许有一种想问的感觉。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, 只是当 6 或最低 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, 我不知道?

照片中风车下的黑暗森林是父亲种植的雪松林。。最后的间伐工作是由我父亲完成的,他本人也热爱大山。、森林动物群彼此之间有足够的空间,、与不可接触的森林有着明显的区别。。显然,距离种植这些树已经不到 50 年了。。随着时间的推移,它会长成一棵参天大树。。这里是我父亲的心所在的林。。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27