mesec: March 2012

moj oče je umrl。201213. marec ob 8.22。Oče zadnjič diha 5、pred 6 urami、Vlaki za Hachinohejem so bili prekinjeni zaradi močnega sneženja.、Uspelo mi je priti do bolnišnice z bratovim avtomobilom.。Trenutek, ko je utrip na monitorju postal 0、V bolniški sobi sva bila samo jaz in moj oče.。

My father was dead. March 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Ko sem takoj ob prihodu v bolnišnico zagledala očetov obraz、Čutil sem, da je očetova smrt blizu.、na drugi strani、Odkar sem prišel, lahko nekaj naredim、Čeprav je zdravnik že zdavnaj obupal nad mano (glavni zdravnik ni šel domov, čeprav ni bil v službi)。Verjetno je šlo za napoved smrtne postelje.)、Razmišljal sem brez podlage。V resnici je moj oče umrl, ne da bi lahko karkoli naredil.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Ali nisem mogel pomagati očetu? jaz mislim。6 mesecev、Najmanj 3 mesece、Še vedno mislim, da bi očeta morda lahko ozdravil, če bi se posvetil njegovi negi.。Razlog, da tega nismo storili, je bil, ker smo dali prednost svojemu življenju.。Ne morem si pomagati, če rečeš, da sem te zapustil。oče me je hotel spoznati、zakaj tega nisi naredil?、Mogoče je bil občutek, da želim vprašati。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Temni gozd pod mlinom na veter na fotografiji je cedrov gozd, ki ga je posadil moj oče.。Končno redčenje je dokončal moj oče, ki je tudi sam ljubil gore.、Gozdna favna, z veliko prostora med seboj, je、Obstaja jasna razlika od nedotakljivega gozda.。Menda je minilo nekaj manj kot 50 let od zasaditve dreves.。S časom bo zraslo v lepo drevo.。To je Hayashi, kjer je ostalo srce mojega očeta.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

moj oče se ne počuti dobro。Neke zore, sem nenadoma pomislil。Očetovega portreta nimam。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

jaz sem slikar。Poleg tega je glavna tema človek (čeprav temu težko rečemo portret).。kljub temu、Očetovega portreta ni.。oče, mati, žena, brat、Svojega sorodnika nisem narisal.。Niti avtoportretov ni veliko。ko je moj dedek umrl、Narisal sem posmrtno masko, ki je ležala na še toplem telesu.。Ostalo je mojega sina、Le nekaj občasnih skic je.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Bolj ko razmišljam o tem、to se zdi čudno。Vedno so me zanimali človeški obrazi in geste.、Mislil sem, da stvari opazujem globlje kot drugi ljudje.、Kaj to pomeni?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

Moja družina ima preveč smisla za življenje.、Ali to pomeni, da so odmaknjeni od subjekta slikanja? ampak、Mislim, da med občutenjem življenja in slikarstvom ni protislovja.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

Od zdaj naprej bom pozoren nase in na svojo družino.、Narišimo znano osebo。Iz znanih motivov、Obstaja veliko primerov ustvarjanja dobrih slik.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.