四十九日 / 49th day

老部(おいぺ)待休所にて  Oipe memorial place

Na očetovo spominsko slovesnost 49、Vrnjen v vas Shimokita/Higashidori。29. april、Spominska slovesnost je gladko zaključena、Do takrat so bile začasne tablice postavljene v vaško počivališče (zbirno mesto za Nembutsu-ba).、molitvena dvorana。Prestavili so ga na goro Osore (ki ima zanimivo ljudsko versko barvo, podobno tisti na gori Osore).、Moj oče je zdaj eden mojih prednikov.。

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

V japonskem budizmu、49 dni po smrti ima zelo pomemben pomen.。V japonskem budizmu se dan smrti šteje za prvi dan.、Recimo, da vsakih sedem dni poteka sojenje glede zaslug mrtvih v času njihovega življenja.。Prvih sedem dni bo prvo sojenje.、Tudi če ste mrtvi, kaj se bo zgodilo z vašim življenjem in smrtjo v posmrtnem življenju?、Živčen sem, ker bo prvo sojenje za。Tam podpirajo žalujoče družine、poskuša podpreti、naredi prvo daritev。Daritev je donacija družbi.、To ne pomeni nujno, da se izvaja za menihe.。Skratka pokojnik、To pomeni, da bo za izpad socialnega prispevka poskrbela žalujoča družina.。In sojenje poteka vsakih sedem dni.、Sodba bo izrečena na 7. in zadnjem sojenju.。Sojenja vedno potekajo v sedmih sejah.、Zadnja epizoda je najpomembnejša。Če je tukaj zunaj, mrtvi ne morejo v Čisto deželo raja.、bo šel v pekel。Zato žalujoča družina pokojniku namenja zadnje besede.、Napolnite se z donacijami v zahvalo、Pomembno je narediti varnostno kopijo pokojnika。Po tem ni nobene možnosti。Zato pravimo, da je spominska slovesnost 49. najpomembnejša.。

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

Ta spominska služba je tudi za redovnike.、zelo pomemben kot vir dohodka。v sodobni Japonski、Kot da budizem ne obstaja več.、Še vedno je zelo prisoten na področju pogrebov za mrtve.。"Pogrebna ekonomija" je tako rekoč rešilna bilka japonskega budizma.。Še več, žalost žalujoče družine、Relativizirajte žalost、Razkorak med družbenimi potrebami po čim manjšem duševnem bremenu、In vmes časovni pritisk razpadajočih trupel zaradi globalnega segrevanja,、Čeprav je okoren, ima veliko prisotnost.。To je sodobni pomen 49-dnevne spominske slovesnosti.、Mi Japonci、Glede pogrebov ni problema.、Imajo skrivnosten nacionalni značaj.。

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶりに描いた / Got good feeling

 

はまなす 水彩F4(部分) 2012

久しぶりに水彩を描いたこの前描いたのがいつだったかもう思い出せない少なくとも3月7日(水)以前ではないと思う。Potem、まだ1カ月経っていないわけだが、Intuitivno、もう何年も経ってしまったかと思うほど「切れてしまった」

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

描き過ぎだ塗る面積が多いという意味ではなく考え無しに単調に描いてしまっていると意味だ画面と感覚がずれているということだろう

This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

それでも久しぶりに筆を執った喜びは画面に吹き出ているように感じるいいことだやはり私は描くことで元気になる人間だとあらためて感じた

Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった   My father was dead

父の作った山

父が亡くなった。2012年3月13日午前8時22分父が息を引き取る56時間前に大雪で八戸から先の列車が不通になる中を弟の車で何とか病院に辿り着いたモニターの脈拍が0になったその瞬間病室の中は私と父だけになっていた

My father was dead. March 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

病院について直ぐ父の顔を見たとき父の死は間近だと感じたが、na drugi strani、自分が来たからには何とかできるととっくに医者も見離しているのに(担当医は当直でもないのに帰宅せずに留まっていたおそらく臨終の宣告をするためだったのだろう)根拠もなく考えていた実際はどうすることもできずに父の死を迎えたのだったが

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

私は父を助けることが出来たのではないか?と思う6カ月せめて3カ月間介護に専念したら父を回復させることが出来たのではないかと今も思うそれをしなかったのは自分達の生活を優先したからだ見捨てたと言われても仕方ない父が私に会いたがったのは何故そうしてくれなかったのかと問いたい気持ちもあったのかも知れない

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

写真の風車の下の黒々とした林は父の植林した杉林だ山が大好きだった父自身の手で最終間伐を終えたっぷりと間隔を取った林相は周囲の手の入らない林とは歴然の差だ植林後まだ50年に少し満たないらしいこれから時間を経るごとに立派な木に育っていくだろう父の心が残っている林だ

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27