hilabetea: Martxoa 2012

nire aita hil zen。2012Martxoak 13, 08:22。Aitak azken arnasa hartzen du 5、duela 6 ordu、Hachinohetik haratago trenak eten egin zituzten elurte handia zela eta.、Ospitalera iristea lortu nuen anaiaren autoan.。Monitorearen pultsu-tasa 0 bihurtu zen unea、Ni eta nire aita besterik ez ginen ospitaleko gelan.。

My father was dead. Martxoa 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Ospitalera heldu bezain pronto aitaren aurpegia ikusi nuenean、Nire aitaren heriotza gertu zegoela sentitu nuen.、bestetik、Etorri nintzenetik, zerbait egin dezaket、Nahiz eta medikuak aspaldi utzi ninduen (arduradun medikua ez zen etxera joan eta han geratu zen nahiz eta guardian egon ez)。Seguruenik heriotza-ohea iragartzeko izan zen.)、Inongo oinarririk gabe pentsatzen ari nintzen。Egia esan, nire aita ezer egin ezinik hil zen.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Ezin al nioke aitari lagundu? uste dut。6 hilabete、Gutxienez 3 hilabete、Oraindik uste dut bera zaintzen arituko banintz, agian aita berreskuratuko nuela.。Hori ez egiteko arrazoia gure bizitzari lehentasuna ematen genuelako izan zen.。Ezin dut utzi abandonatu zaitudala esaten baduzu。nire aitak ezagutu nahi ninduen、zergatik ez duzu hori egin?、Agian galdera hori egiteko gogoa izan nuen.。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Argazkiko haize-errotaren azpiko baso iluna nire aitak landatutako zedro-basoa da.。Azken mehetzea nire aitak osatu zuen, mendiak berak maite zituena.、Basoko fauna, bata bestearen artean espazio ugari duena, da、Alde argia dago baso ukiezinarekiko.。Antza denez, 50 urte baino gutxiago dira zuhaitzak landatu zirenetik.。Denbora pasa ahala zuhaitz fin batean haziko da.。Hau da Hayashi non nire aitaren bihotza geratzen den.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

nire aita ez da ondo sentitzen。Egunsenti batean, pentsatu nuen bat-batean。Ez daukat aitaren erretraturik。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

margolaria naiz。Gainera, gai nagusia gizakiak dira (nahiz eta zaila den erretratua deitzea).。hala ere、Ez dago nire aitaren erretraturik.。aita, ama, emaztea, anaia、Ez nuen nire seniderik marraztu.。Ez dago autoerretratu askorik ere。nire aitona hil zenean、Heriotza-maskara bat marraztu nuen oraindik bero dagoen gorputzaren gainean.。Gainerakoa nire semearena da、Noizean behin zirriborro batzuk besterik ez daude.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Zenbat eta gehiago pentsatzen dut、arraroa dirudi horrek。Beti interesatu izan zaizkit giza aurpegiak eta keinuak.、Gauzak beste pertsonak baino sakonago behatzen ari nintzela uste nuen.、Zer esan nahi du honek?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

Nire familiak bizitzaren zentzu gehiegi du.、Horrek esan nahi du pinturaren gaitik kenduta daudela? baina、Ez dut uste bizitzaren eta pinturaren artean kontraesanik dagoenik.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

Hemendik aurrera, nire buruaz eta nire familiaz kontziente izango naiz.、Marraz dezagun pertsona ezagun bat。Motibo ezagunetatik、Sortzen ari diren irudi onen adibide asko daude.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.