四十 九日 / čtyřicátádevátý deň

老部(おいぺ)待休所にて  Oipe memorial place

父の四十九日の法要で下北・東通村に帰省した4月29日さらりと法要を終えそれまでの仮位牌を集落の待休所(念仏婆の為の集会所祈念堂恐山と近似の民間信仰的色彩が面白い)に移しこれで父も先祖の一人となった

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

日本仏教では死後49日というのはとても重要な意味を持っている日本仏教では死んだ日を1日目とし7日ごとに死者の生前の功徳についての裁判が行われるとする初七日は最初の裁判となり死者といえども「あの世での生死」がどうなるかの最初の裁判が行われるため緊張するそこで遺族が応援援護しようと最初のお布施を行うお布施とは社会への寄付であり必ずしもお坊さんに対して行うという意味ではない要するに亡くなった故人の社会貢献の不足分を遺族が代行するということだそして7日ごとに裁判が行われ最終第7回目で結審する審理は必ず7回で行われ最終回が最も重要だここでアウトなら死者は極楽浄土には行けず地獄に落ちることになるそのため遺族が死者に対して最後のお礼としてのお布施を積んで死者のバックアップをすることが重要になるこの後ではもうチャンスが無いのだ49日の法要が最も大事だというのはそういう意味である

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

この法要は僧侶にとっても収入源として極めて重要な意味を持っている現代日本において仏教は既に存在していないに等しいが死者の葬送に関してだけは依然として大きな存在感を持っている「葬儀経済」はいわば日本仏教の命綱なのであるしかも遺族の悲しみと悲しみを相対化しできるだけ心理的負担を軽く済まそうという社会的ニーズのはざまそして温暖化による死体腐乱との時間的プレッシャーとの合間にドサクサ的ではあるが巨大な存在感を持っているそれが49日法要の現代的意義であるがわれわれ日本人は葬儀に関しては問題化しないという不思議な国民性を有しているのである

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶり に 描い た / Mám dobrý pocit

 

はまなす 水彩F4(部分) 2012

Prvýkrát som maľoval akvarelom.。Kedy si to naposledy nakreslil?、Už si nepamätám。Nemyslím si, že to bude aspoň v stredu 7. marca.。Potom、Ešte neprešiel ani mesiac、Intuitívne、Ostrihalo sa to tak, že si myslím, že sú to už roky.。

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

Je to príliš nakreslené。Neznamená to, že je potrebné maľovať veľa plochy.、bez rozmýšľania、To znamená, že kresba je monotónna.。Pravdepodobne to znamená, že obrazovka a pocit nie sú synchronizované.。

This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

Napriek tomu cítim radosť z písania po dlhom čase, keď som vyšla na plátno.。To je dobrá vec。Som predsa človek, ktorý kreslením dostáva energiu.、Cítil som to znova。

Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった   My father was dead

父の作った山

môj otec zomrel。201213. marca, 8:22。Otec vydýchol naposledy 5、pred 6 hodinami、Vlaky za Hachinohe boli pre husté sneženie pozastavené.、Do nemocnice sa mi podarilo dostať bratovým autom.。Okamih, keď sa pulzová frekvencia na monitore stala 0、Boli sme len ja a môj otec v nemocničnej izbe.。

My father was dead. Marec 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Keď som hneď po príchode do nemocnice uvidel otcovu tvár、Cítil som, že smrť môjho otca je blízko.、na druhej strane、Odkedy som prišiel, môžem niečo urobiť、Aj keď lekár to odo mňa už dávno vzdal (vedúci lekár nechodil domov aj keď nemal službu).。Pravdepodobne to bolo oznámiť smrteľnú posteľ.)、Uvažoval som bez akéhokoľvek základu。V skutočnosti môj otec zomrel bez toho, aby mohol čokoľvek urobiť.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Nemohol som pomôcť svojmu otcovi? myslím。6 mesiacov、Minimálne 3 mesiace、Stále si myslím, že by sa mi možno podarilo otca uzdraviť, keby som sa venoval jeho starostlivosti.。Dôvod, prečo sme to neurobili, bol ten, že sme uprednostnili svoj vlastný život.。Nemôžem si pomôcť, ak povieš, že som ťa opustil。môj otec sa so mnou chcel stretnúť、prečo si to neurobil?、Možno tam bol pocit, že sa chcem opýtať。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Tmavý les pod veterným mlynom na fotografii je cédrový les, ktorý vysadil môj otec.。Definitívne preriedenie dokončil môj otec, ktorý sám hory miloval.、Lesná fauna, s dostatkom priestoru medzi sebou, je、Od nedotknuteľného lesa je jasný rozdiel.。Od vysadenia stromov ubehlo zrejme niečo menej ako 50 rokov.。Časom z neho vyrastie pekný strom.。Toto je Hayashi, kde zostáva srdce môjho otca.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27