mes: Marzo 2012

meu pai morreu。201213 de marzo, 08:22 h。O pai toma o último suspiro 5、hai 6 horas、Os trens máis aló de Hachinohe suspendéronse debido á forte neve.、Conseguín chegar ao hospital no coche do meu irmán.。O momento no que a frecuencia do pulso no monitor converteuse en 0、Só estabamos eu e meu pai na habitación do hospital.。

My father was dead. Marzo 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Cando vin a cara de meu pai nada máis chegar ao hospital、Sentín que a morte do meu pai estaba preto.、por outra banda、Desde que vin, podo facer algo、Aínda que o doutor me desistira hai tempo (o doutor responsable non foi a casa e quedou alí aínda que non estaba de garda)。Probablemente fose para anunciar o leito de morte).、Estaba pensando sen ningunha base。En realidade, meu pai morreu sen poder facer nada.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Non podería ter axudado a meu pai? penso。6 meses、Polo menos 3 meses、Sigo pensando que, se me dedicara a coidalo, quizais puidera recuperar o meu pai.。A razón pola que non o fixemos foi porque priorizamos as nosas propias vidas.。Non podo evitar se dis que te abandonei。meu pai quería coñecerme、por que non fixeches iso?、Quizais había unha sensación de querer preguntar。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

O bosque escuro debaixo do muíño da foto é un bosque de cedros plantado por meu pai.。O clareo final completouno meu pai, quen amaba as montañas.、A fauna forestal, con moito espazo entre si, é、Hai unha clara diferenza co bosque intocable.。Ao parecer, hai pouco menos de 50 anos que se plantaron as árbores.。A medida que pase o tempo, crecerá nunha boa árbore.。Este é Hayashi onde permanece o corazón do meu pai.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

meu pai non está ben。Unha mañá, pensei de súpeto。Non teño un retrato do meu pai。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

son pintor。Ademais, o tema principal son os humanos (aínda que é difícil chamalo retrato).。con todo、Non hai ningún retrato do meu pai.。pai, nai, muller, irmán、Non debuxen a ningún dos meus parentes.。Nin sequera hai moitos autorretratos。cando morreu o meu avó、Debuxei unha máscara mortuoria a cabalo sobre o corpo aínda quente.。O resto é do meu fillo、Só hai algúns esbozos ocasionais.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Canto máis penso niso、iso parece estraño。Sempre me interesaron os rostros e os xestos humanos.、Pensei que estaba observando as cousas máis profundamente que outras persoas.、Que significa isto?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

A miña familia ten demasiado sentido da vida.、Significa isto que se eliminan do tema da pintura? pero、Non creo que haxa contradición entre o sentido da vida e a pintura.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

A partir de agora, serei consciente de min e da miña familia.、Imos debuxar unha persoa coñecida。De motivos coñecidos、Hai moitos exemplos de boas imaxes que se están creando.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.