Xahar: March 2012

missieri miet。201213 ta’ Marzu, 8:22am。Missier jieħu l-aħħar nifs tiegħu 5、6 sigħat ilu、Ferroviji lil hinn minn Hachinohe ġew sospiżi minħabba borra qawwija.、Irnexxieli nilħaq l-isptar bil-karozza ta’ ħu.。Il-mument meta r-rata tal-polz fuq il-monitor saret 0、Konna biss jien u missieri fil-kamra tal-isptar.。

My father was dead. March 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Meta rajt wiċċ missieri malli wasalt l-isptar、Ħassejt li l-mewt ta’ missieri kienet viċin.、Min-naħa l-oħra、Minn mindu ġejt, nista’ nagħmel xi ħaġa、Anke jekk it-tabib kien qata’ qalbi ilu (it-tabib inkarigat ma marx id-dar u baqa’ hemm minkejja li ma kienx xoghol)。Probabbilment kien biex iħabbar is-sodda tal-mewt.)、Kont qed naħseb mingħajr ebda bażi。Fir-realtà, missieri miet mingħajr ma seta’ jagħmel xejn.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Ma stajtx għen lil missieri? Naħseb。6 xhur、Mill-inqas 3 xhur、Għadni naħseb li kieku ddedikat ruħi biex nieħu ħsiebu, stajt stajt nirkupra lil missieri.。Ir-raġuni li ma għamilniex hekk kienet għaliex ipprijoritizzajna ħajjitna stess.。Ma nistax ngħinu jekk tgħid li abbandunajtek。missieri ried jiltaqa’ miegħi、għaliex ma għamiltx hekk?、Forsi kien hemm sensazzjoni li trid tistaqsi。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Il-foresta skura taħt il-mitħna tar-riħ fir-ritratt hija foresta taċ-ċedru mħawla minn missieri.。It-tnaqqija finali tlestiet minn missieri, li kien iħobb il-muntanji nnifsu.、Il-fawna tal-foresti, b'ħafna spazju bejn xulxin, hija、Hemm differenza ċara mill-foresta li ma tintmissx.。Jidher li għaddew ftit inqas minn 50 sena minn meta tħawlu s-siġar.。Se tikber f’siġra fina hekk kif jgħaddi ż-żmien.。Dan huwa Hayashi fejn il-qalb ta’ missieri tibqa’.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

missieri mhux qed iħossu tajjeb。Filgħodu waħda, f'daqqa waħda ħsibt。M'għandix ritratt ta' missieri。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

jien pittur。Barra minn hekk, it-tema ewlenija hija l-bnedmin (għalkemm huwa diffiċli li tissejjaħ ritratt).。madankollu、M’hemm l-ebda ritratt ta’ missieri.。missier, omm, mara, ħu、Jien ma ġibt l-ebda qraba tiegħi.。Lanqas ma hemm ħafna awtoritratti。meta miet nannu、Pinġejt maskra tal-mewt fuq il-ġisem li għadu sħun.。Il-bqija huwa ta’ ibni、Hemm biss ftit abbozzi okkażjonali.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Iktar ma naħseb dwarha、li tidher stramba。Minn dejjem kont interessat fl-uċuħ u l-ġesti umani.、Ħsibt li qed josserva l-affarijiet aktar fil-fond minn nies oħra.、Xi jfisser dan?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

Il-familja tiegħi għandha wisq sens tal-ħajja.、Ifisser dan li jitneħħew mis-suġġett tal-pittura? imma、Ma naħsibx li hemm kontradizzjoni bejn sens ta’ ħajja u pittura.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

Minn issa ’l quddiem, inkun konxju dwari u dwar il-familja tiegħi.、Ejja niġbed persuna familjari。Minn motivi familjari、Hemm ħafna eżempji ta 'stampi tajbin li qed jinħolqu.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.