四十九日　/　49th day

老部（おいぺ）待休所にて　　Oipe memorial place

父の四十九日の法要で、下北・東通村に帰省した。４月２９日、さらりと法要を終え、それまでの仮位牌を集落の待休所（念仏婆の為の集会所、祈念堂。恐山と近似の民間信仰的色彩が面白い）に移し、これで父も先祖の一人となった。

I’ve been Higashi-dori village for my father’s memorial celemony based on buddism in Shimokita. It means 49 days passed from his death. It is quite common and important custom in Japan. After this celemony, all of living member of his family are able to do ordinary behavior. And then his spirit turn to one of our ancestors. 2012/4/30

日本仏教では、死後49日というのはとても重要な意味を持っている。日本仏教では死んだ日を１日目とし、７日ごとに死者の生前の功徳についての裁判が行われるとする。初七日は最初の裁判となり、死者といえども「あの世での生死」がどうなるか、の最初の裁判が行われるため緊張する。そこで遺族が応援、援護しようと、最初のお布施を行う。お布施とは社会への寄付であり、必ずしもお坊さんに対して行うという意味ではない。要するに亡くなった故人の、社会貢献の不足分を遺族が代行するということだ。そして７日ごとに裁判が行われ、最終第７回目で結審する。審理は必ず７回で行われ、最終回が最も重要だ。ここでアウトなら死者は極楽浄土には行けず、地獄に落ちることになる。そのため遺族が死者に対して最後の、お礼としてのお布施を積んで、死者のバックアップをすることが重要になる。この後ではもうチャンスが無いのだ。４９日の法要が最も大事だというのはそういう意味である。

“After 49 days from death” has very impottant meaning for japanese buddism. They say that every death person must be on trial every 7 days after death about his contribution to society (it colled “kudoku” ) at their living time. If the judgement means too short, that death person can not go to Heaven. The 49 days mean the 7th trial. This is final and most impotant chance. S0 most bareaved family would like to help them from this living world. Actually we served gorgeous dinner and money to the buddist priest specially. Sometimes it seems that cost is very big money .

この法要は僧侶にとっても、収入源として極めて重要な意味を持っている。現代日本において、仏教は既に存在していないに等しいが、死者の葬送に関してだけは依然として大きな存在感を持っている。「葬儀経済」はいわば日本仏教の命綱なのである。しかも遺族の悲しみと、悲しみを相対化し、できるだけ心理的負担を軽く済まそうという社会的ニーズのはざま、そして温暖化による死体腐乱との時間的プレッシャーとの合間に、ドサクサ的ではあるが巨大な存在感を持っている。それが４９日法要の現代的意義であるが、われわれ日本人は、葬儀に関しては問題化しないという、不思議な国民性を有しているのである。

This celemony is not only important for death person but the priest also on a viewpoint of economy. In Japan, real buddism seems disappeared already but it has strongly existance around the celemony like this. Economy with death celemony is a life-line for japanese buddism indeed. Although most of japanese feel death celemony is out of all problem.

久しぶりに描いた　/　Got good feeling

 

はまなす　水彩F4（部分）　2012

Jeg malede akvarel for første gang i et stykke tid.。Hvornår har du sidst tegnet det?、Jeg kan ikke huske mere。Jeg tror i hvert fald ikke, det bliver før onsdag den 7. marts.。Derefter、Der er ikke gået en måned endnu、Intuitivt、Det er blevet skåret så meget, at jeg tror, ​​det er år siden.。

I painted a wator colour’s today. I don’t know when I did the latest one. I suppose it was within a month, but I feel for long time passing.

Det er for meget tegnet。Det betyder ikke, at der er meget overfladeareal at male.、uden at tænke、Det betyder, at tegningen er ensformig.。Det betyder sandsynligvis, at skærmen og fornemmelsen er ude af sync.。

This is over painting, I think. It means that was painted too much narrative without deep thinking. It shows us the gap between this expression and my feeling.

Alligevel mærker jeg glæden ved at skrive efter lang tid at komme ud på skærmen.。Det er en god ting。Jeg er jo en person, der får energi af at tegne.、Jeg mærkede det igen。

Althogh, It seems that filled with joy on this picture. It has good feeling. I got a new understanding of myself who could refresh with paiting pictures. 2012/4/3

 

父が亡くなった　　　My father was dead

父の作った山

min far døde。201213. marts kl. 08.22。Far tager sit sidste åndedrag 5、6 timer siden、Tog ud over Hachinohe blev suspenderet på grund af kraftig sne.、Det lykkedes mig at nå frem til hospitalet i min brors bil.。Øjeblikket, hvor pulsen på skærmen blev 0、Det var kun mig og min far på hospitalsstuen.。

My father was dead. Marts 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Da jeg så min fars ansigt, så snart jeg ankom til hospitalet、Jeg følte, at min fars død var nær.、på den anden side、Siden jeg kom, kan jeg gøre noget、Selvom lægen havde opgivet mig for længe siden (den ansvarlige læge gik ikke hjem og blev der, selvom han ikke var på vagt)。Det var sandsynligvis for at annoncere dødslejet.)、Jeg tænkte uden grundlag。I virkeligheden døde min far uden at kunne gøre noget.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Kunne jeg ikke have hjulpet min far? jeg tror。6 måneder、Mindst 3 måneder、Jeg tror stadig, at jeg kunne have været i stand til at få min far tilbage, hvis jeg havde fokuseret på hans omsorg.。Grunden til, at vi ikke gjorde det, var, at vi prioriterede vores eget liv.。Jeg kan ikke lade være, hvis du siger, jeg har forladt dig。min far ville møde mig、hvorfor gjorde du ikke det?、Måske var der en følelse af at ville spørge。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Den mørke skov under vindmøllen på billedet er en cederskov plantet af min far.。Den sidste udtynding blev gennemført af min far, som selv elskede bjergene.、Skovfaunaen, med masser af plads mellem hinanden, er、Der er en klar forskel fra den urørlige skov.。Det er tilsyneladende lidt mindre end 50 år siden, at træerne blev plantet.。Det vil vokse til et fint træ, som tiden går.。Det er Hayashi, hvor min fars hjerte forbliver.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27