Buwan: March 2012

namatay ang tatay ko。2012Ika-13 ng Marso, 8:22am。Huling hininga ni Tatay 5、6 na oras ang nakalipas、大雪で八戸から先の列車が不通になる中を、Nakarating ako sa ospital sakay ng kotse ng kapatid ko.。モニターの脈拍が０になったその瞬間、Ako at ang tatay ko lang ang nasa kwarto ng ospital.。

My father was dead. March 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Nang makita ko ang mukha ng aking ama pagdating ko sa ospital、Pakiramdam ko ay malapit na ang kamatayan ng aking ama.、sa kabilang banda、Simula nang dumating ako, may magagawa ako、Kahit matagal nang sumuko sa akin ang doktor (hindi umuwi ang kinauukulan at nanatili doon kahit wala siyang duty)。Ito ay marahil upang ipahayag ang kamatayan.)、Nag-iisip ako ng walang basehan。実際はどうすることもできずに父の死を迎えたのだったが。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Couldn't I have helped my father? sa tingin ko。6 na buwan、Hindi bababa sa 3 buwan、介護に専念したら父を回復させることが出来たのではないかと今も思う。Ang dahilan kung bakit hindi namin ginawa iyon ay dahil inuuna namin ang aming sariling buhay.。Hindi ko mapigilan kung sasabihin mong iniwan kita。gusto akong makilala ng tatay ko、bakit hindi mo ginawa yun?、Baka may feeling na gustong magtanong。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Ang madilim na kagubatan sa ilalim ng windmill sa larawan ay isang cedar forest na itinanim ng aking ama.。Ang huling pagpapanipis ay nakumpleto ng aking ama, na mahal ang mga bundok mismo.、Ang fauna sa kagubatan, na may maraming espasyo sa pagitan ng bawat isa, ay、May malinaw na pagkakaiba mula sa hindi mahawakang kagubatan.。Tila wala pang 50 taon mula nang itanim ang mga puno.。Ito ay lalago at magiging isang pinong puno habang lumilipas ang panahon.。Ito ang Hayashi kung saan nananatili ang puso ng aking ama.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

hindi maganda ang pakiramdam ng tatay ko。Isang umaga, bigla kong naisip。Wala akong portrait ng tatay ko。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

ako ay isang pintor。Bukod dito, ang pangunahing tema ay mga tao (bagaman mahirap tawagan itong isang portrait).。gayunpaman、Walang larawan ng aking ama.。ama, ina, asawa, kapatid、Wala akong iginuhit na kamag-anak.。Walang kahit na maraming self-portraits。nung namatay ang lolo ko、Iginuhit ko ang isang death mask na nakasandal sa mainit na katawan.。Ang natitira ay sa aking anak、折々のスケッチが数点あるだけだ。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Ang dami kong iniisip、parang kakaiba yan。Palagi akong interesado sa mga mukha at kilos ng tao.、Akala ko mas malalim kong pinagmamasdan ang mga bagay kaysa sa ibang tao.、Ano ang ibig sabihin nito?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

家族では生活感が強すぎて、Nangangahulugan ba ito na sila ay tinanggal mula sa paksa ng pagpipinta? ngunit、Sa palagay ko ay walang kontradiksyon sa pagitan ng pakiramdam ng buhay at pagpipinta.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

Simula ngayon, magiging conscious na ako sa sarili ko at sa pamilya ko.、身近な人を描いてみよう。Mula sa mga pamilyar na motif、Maraming mga halimbawa ng magagandang larawan na nilikha.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.