maand: Maart 2012

my pa is dood。201213 Maart, 08:22。Vader haal sy laaste asem 5、6 ure gelede、Treine anderkant Hachinohe is weens swaar sneeu opgeskort.、Ek het daarin geslaag om die hospitaal in my broer se motor te bereik.。Die oomblik toe die polsslag op die monitor 0 geword het、Dit was net ek en my pa in die hospitaalkamer.。

My father was dead. Maart 13 in 2012, at 8:22 in morning. I just was in time for his death before 5 or 6 hours with my brother. Outside was in the snowstorm as impossible as relate the train from Hachino-he to Oh-minato. When his pulse was disappear from the moniter, I was there with only my father in that room.

Toe ek my pa se gesig sien sodra ek by die hospitaal aangekom het、Ek het gevoel dat my pa se dood naby was.、aan die ander kant、Vandat ek gekom het, kan ek iets doen、Al het die dokter my lankal opgegee (die dokter in beheer het nie huis toe gegaan al was hy nie aan diens nie).。Dit was waarskynlik om die sterfbed aan te kondig.)、Ek het sonder enige basis gedink。In werklikheid het my pa gesterf sonder dat hy iets kon doen.。

When we arrived, soon I felt he would be die in not so longtime. The other side, I had strange confidence that I could save his own life unfounded. At that time, his doctor has been gived saving his life up already I guess. Actualy I couldn’t do anything as completly for my father, I must be allowed the fact of his death.

Kon ek nie my pa gehelp het nie? Ek dink。6 maande、Ten minste 3 maande、Ek dink steeds dat as ek my daaraan toewy om hom te versorg, ek dalk my pa kon herstel.。Die rede hoekom ons dit nie gedoen het nie, was omdat ons ons eie lewens geprioritiseer het.。Ek kan dit nie help as jy sê ek het jou verlaat nie。my pa wou my ontmoet、hoekom het jy dit nie gedoen nie?、Miskien was daar 'n gevoel van wil vra。

I wonder if I can do saving my father’s-own-life ? I have been imagined that he might be Come-back to our family, if I could take him care with apply myself, just while 6 or minimum 3 months. Althogh I couldn’t, because I have to keep the life of my own family. Was I abandand him? He wants to complain to me, I wonder?

Die donker woud onder die windpomp op die foto is 'n sederbos wat deur my pa geplant is.。Die laaste uitdunning is voltooi deur my pa, wat self lief was vir die berge.、Die woudfauna, met baie spasie tussen mekaar, is、Daar is 'n duidelike verskil van die onaantasbare woud.。Dit is glo 'n bietjie minder as 50 jaar sedert die bome geplant is.。Dit sal groei tot 'n fyn boom soos die tyd verbygaan.。Dit is Hayashi waar my pa se hart bly.。

There is my father’s tree planted property that was viewed dark place in this picture. That is having good condition for trees now as he loved trees and its emvironmental nature. These trees just are little for use since only 50 years after his planting. They will be glowing up gradually. This mountain reminds me to him. 3/27

my pa voel nie lekker nie。Een dagbreek, dink ek skielik。Ek het nie 'n portret van my pa nie。

My father has been bad for three weeks. One morning, I found that I didn’t have his portrait I painted.

ek is 'n skilder。Boonop is die hooftema mense (hoewel dit moeilik is om dit 'n portret te noem).。nietemin、Daar is geen portret van my pa nie.。pa, ma, vrou, broer、Ek het nie een van my familielede geteken nie.。Daar is nie eens baie selfportrette nie。toe my oupa dood is、Ek het 'n doodsmasker oor die nog warm lyf getrek.。Die res is my seun s'n、Daar is net 'n paar af en toe sketse.。

Although I’m a professional painter, but I have not painted any portraits of my relative’s. Even my self-portrait is also. In exeptional cases, one portrait of my grand-father was painted as his deth-mask just when he died, I did it on his body like a horse riding. Other is even a few my son’s, occasionaly.

Hoe meer ek daaroor dink、dit lyk vreemd。Ek was nog altyd geïnteresseerd in menslike gesigte en gebare.、Ek het gedink ek neem dinge dieper waar as ander mense.、Wat beteken dit?

I feel that’s the more strange, the more thinking. Althogh I’ve been keeping curiosity about human’s faces, human’s manner and I believed I was a good human watcher, why I didn’t do that?

My gesin het te veel van 'n sin vir die lewe.、Beteken dit dat hulle van die onderwerp van skildery verwyder is? maar、Ek dink nie daar is 'n teenstrydigheid tussen 'n gevoel van lewe en skildery nie.。

Is this mean that the family is too close to me for object of painting pictures? However, I think that is consistable.

Van nou af sal ek bewus wees van myself en my gesin.、Kom ons teken 'n bekende persoon。Van bekende motiewe、Daar is baie voorbeelde van goeie prente wat geskep word.。

I will painting many portraits of my familial people after now. It goes without saying that the greatworks will be born from a famirial goods or things for artists.